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roar:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Saturday, June 2, 2012, In : How I See It 


I have never wanted a tattoo.
Their permanence has always been my deterrent.
What is solidly me today
is solidly something else next week.
I never understood the psychology of a tattoo
and how they make visible what is often not seen.
But I get it now.

Score another point for T$
in broadening my horizons yet again.


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update:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Saturday, April 21, 2012, In : How I See It 


I was once an onion,
mining my layers to uncover myself.

I liked being an onion.
I liked the implication of depth and discovery.


But I'm not an onion.


Onions get smaller when their layers are shed.
That's not me.

The deeper I go, the bigger I get.


I'm a freaking galaxy.
#mwahahahaha







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new year, new yorker:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, February 5, 2012, In : How I See It 


I decided to address my nasty habit of reading articles and magazines without actually reading them by committing to The New Yorker for one month. I read this issue of the text-heavy magazine cover to cover only because my friend's Velcro annotations pulled me into articles that I'm certain to have skipped.

I bought my next issue at JFK a few days later on my way to Arizona then another for my flight homeNow I chomp for the next issue and impatiently wait for my one-year subscription to ki...

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come on, people:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, October 23, 2011, In : How I See It 


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lookee what I found:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, October 5, 2011, In : How I See It 


I found this gem in an old journal.
It is simply to good to be tucked away.
Go big.
Now bigger.

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10 years later:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, September 11, 2011, In : How I See It 


It was my second day at United Way of Greater Portland. T$ sent a lowercase email without punctuation: have your heard about new york

Meg Baxter gave us the option of staying at work with friends or going wherever we felt most safe. They weren't my friends yet so I went home. I would have gone home regardless. I need to write.

Clicking the image will take you to my Flickr page so it should be readable. If not, contact me and I'll send you a copy.

"They can give a number of how many died but they...

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slow learner:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Friday, August 19, 2011, In : How I See It 
I've had the same dream for 20 years: running timed suicides on a basketball court and I cannot get my legs really going. (Think running in mud.)

I finally understand. I sometimes behave as though I have no choice when, in fact, I always do. I keep running even though I'll never beat that clock in my dream. I say yes to things that do not belong to me. I act as though things are done to me even though I've actually given my consent by playing along.

Here's my takeaway: Own what it is yours... ...

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how nathan smith got us to double our donation to the portland public library:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, June 5, 2011, In : How I See It 


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why states should help fund public radio:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, May 22, 2011, In : How I See It 

Governor LePage has proposed to eliminate all state support for The Maine Public Broadcasting Network. If you believe the state should continue to partner with individuals and organizations so Maine has an open exchange of information, ideas and cultural content, please sign this online petition today.



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why mpbn matters:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, May 17, 2011, In : How I See It 

Governor LePage has proposed to eliminate all state support for The Maine Public Broadcasting Network. If you believe the state should continue to partner with individuals and organizations so Maine has an open exchange of information, ideas and cultural content, please sign this online petition today.



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re-entry:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Friday, May 13, 2011, In : How I See It 


When I began my work sabbatical a few months ago I had no idea it would have liquid boundaries and wipe clean everything in its path. I haven't painted all year and, if you scroll down, you'll see that my posts here have been pretty slim.


Truth is, I haven't had time.

Don't let the word "sabbatical" fool you. United Way granted me the space to marry my passion and profession, and I responded by pouring everything I have into an organization I believe in.

I consider it a fair trade.


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the scoop:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, March 10, 2011, In : How I See It 

OK. Here's the deal. My new job is at my old job. I'm sitting at the same desk, surrounded by the same people but the work is entirely different. What I previously crammed into weeknights and weekends is now visible on my computer screen at work for all to see. I'm getting paid to do what I have done for free. I am living my dream.

Hugh McLeod calls this marrying of passion and profession an "evil plan."

Chris Brogan and Julien Smith refer to it as hacking your job.

While those descriptors cam...


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feeling spunky:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, March 9, 2011, In : How I See It 
For some reason I cannot enlarge this image to make it more readable. If you cannot read it, copy the web address and paste it into this amazing website. Sorry about that.

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dear maine:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Saturday, January 8, 2011, In : How I See It 


  • Maine has verified citizenship for MaineCare recipients since 2007. [source, page 4]
  • More benefit recipients leave Maine each month than move here and received assistance. [source]
  • Medicaid eligibility cannot be denied because an individual has not resided in a state for a specified period. [federal policy]
 We must spread reality as readily as others spread fantasy. Please share this information with your networks.


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best:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Saturday, January 1, 2011, In : How I See It 


There have been years when I've stayed up until midnight just to make sure the #$@! year was over. This year I stayed up to squeeze every last bit of magic out of it and honor its passing.

It's difficult to measure but 2010 was quite possibly my best year ever.

We spent the evening with friends, laughing easily and savoring the best non-restaurant food I've ever eaten. After walking Ping, I settled in for year's end with a few letters from Julia Child and Avis DeVoto and a gratitude prayer f...

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confession:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Friday, December 3, 2010, In : How I See It 


It's true.
I carry them everywhere.
I like having them close.


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so grateful:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, November 25, 2010, In : How I See It 


I've had quite a year.
If you're reading this,
you've been part of it.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.


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not done:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, November 14, 2010, In : How I See It 



I don't know what it looks like yet, but I do know that I don't want to wait for another election to do something.

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lucky, lucky me:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, November 10, 2010, In : How I See It 

Tonight I'm attending my tenth campaign finale for United Way of Greater Portland. I'm overwhelmed by the impact this organization has had on my life, personally and professionally. I have blossomed here and wish everyone could have such a safe place to grow into themselves.

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never assume:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, November 9, 2010, In : How I See It 
When I met Eliot and Melanie Cutler this spring, I thought it would end there. It always has. I admire those who volunteer for campaigns but I've never been one of them. Now that I have, I've learned a few things:

  • Holy cow is it neat to be a part of something like that, to be vested in the outcome, to hang out with other supporters on election night, to really care about who wins on a personal level.
  • The downside is that you feel the loss in a different way. Suddenly, the election is over but ...

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a little word of advice:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, November 7, 2010, In : How I See It 


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hello again:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, October 17, 2010, In : How I See It 

Wow.
I made it.

The last few weeks required me to hunker down.
I won't go into everything just know that I rocked it all
and am looking forward to better boundaries.

One happy result of my time away
is some new-and-improved computer skills.
I used to be black and white.
Now I'm full color.

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was there:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, September 21, 2010, In : How I See It 

Lady Gaga was in Portland yesterday to pressure Senators Snowe and Collins to repeal Don't Ask Don't Tell today. Unfortunately, they didn't provide a phone number for people to call or text so they better hope a picture is really worth a thousand words.


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why jennifer jackson deserves a raise, bonus, etc.

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, September 19, 2010, In : How I See It 
Yesterday, we flew most of the way home from Arizona on Continental flight CO734T. Flight attendant Jennifer Jackson shared a laugh with us when we boarded the plane. This morning I Tweeted the following:



Here's why:

After Jennifer learned we were flying to Maine, she set out to identify whether we would need to switch concourses in Newark. We smiled and thanked her but we're not really concerned because it was a four-hour flight. When she passed by again a few minutes later, though, Jennifer a...

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wonkation:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, September 15, 2010, In : How I See It 
(n) A break from the normal routine where
a person focuses on a particular area of interest or study

Only a few days remain in my inaugural wonkation where I indulged in Tara Hunt's The Whuffie Factor, David Sibbet's Visual Meetings and Charlene Li's Open Leadership. Now I need a vacation to piece everything together.

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picking sides:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, July 13, 2010, In : How I See It 
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playing favorites:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, July 13, 2010, In : How I See It 
Moments of bliss
when we read at home
long before bed.

I can almost
       feel
the world
    righting
          itself.



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blur:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, July 11, 2010, In : How I See It 
In hindsight, I should've known better than to start a book (let alone read one) last week since the firmament was shifting beneath me.
  • My friend, accomplice and co-worker for nine years left my day-to-day after her grant-funded position had run its course.
  • We sold our car to one of the most kind, altruistic people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
  • We had three listening sessions related to the draft report on early childhood that I spent the better part of a year working on. (There's ...

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inquiring is doing:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, June 29, 2010, In : How I See It 
I heard Dr. Vincent Felitti speak last week about the impact adverse childhood experiences have on health outcomes later in life. In a bold moment I thought I'd share my notes. These are the things that stood out for me.






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the difference:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, June 13, 2010, In : How I See It 


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to know them is to love them:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Friday, June 4, 2010, In : How I See It 

On Tuesday, the Jewish Community Alliance of Southern Maine honored Sam and Bette Novick. The turnout was so great that they had to move the event to the Sable Oaks Marriott.

To meet them and instantly find out how wonderful they are, visit them at Hub Furniture located at 291 Fore Street in Portland, Maine.


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keeping my head in the game at work:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, June 2, 2010, In : How I See It 


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too close to home:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Monday, May 24, 2010, In : How I See It 


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in which she explains:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, April 29, 2010, In : How I See It 
I changed my job on my own. I didn't ask anyone and no one asked me. Made it up all on my own, I did.

I changed my job because I refused to accept that I was destined to run around like a headless chicken.

I changed my job because the old way was.not.working.for.me.

I changed my job.

You can too.


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same word, big difference:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Monday, April 26, 2010, In : How I See It 


I understand why women in the workplace want more women in corner offices. However, I'm not sure those women understand why others like me choose not to be there. For me, it all comes down to how you view work.

"Work" has never resonated with me. It's an obligation that stands between me and the rest of my life. It's what I must do for a paycheck. On the other hand, "the work" is my life. It's what I want to do and how I want to do it. It's how I change the world.

I have zero interest in corne...

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job update:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, April 22, 2010, In : How I See It 
New job is going quite well.

It's clear, however, that my co-workers do not read my blog.


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wish me luck:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, April 20, 2010, In : How I See It 
Today is my first day at a new job.

It's at the same place as the old job, doing the same work with the same people. But, starting today, how I do the work is going to be very different.

I'll keep you posted.


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you go, girl:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, April 15, 2010, In : How I See It 


I've looked for women's negotiation success stories and told others of my own since I read Women Don't Ask a few years ago.

We cannot afford to be shy about this, my friends. It costs too much not to ask. And, knowing you can ask is just as important as actually asking.

My friend's recent negotiation was a game-changer for me. She went big and I got to watch. I now know how it's really done.


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exhausted:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, April 13, 2010, In : How I See It 
Last night I created an alternate universe.
It took less than an instant and
I lived there for 13 hours.

I am in awe of my ability
to create something out of nothing.
It's not a skill I'm particularly proud of.


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happy easter:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, April 4, 2010, In : How I See It 
I love the exchange of Christmas, but Easter is my favorite holiday. It has nothing to do with chocolate bunnies, colorful eggs, bonnets, baskets or sunrise services. It doesn't even have that much to do with Jesus if I'm honest.

It's the metaphor I love.

Rebirth. A new day. Another chance.

Finnegan Begin Again.


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thank you, ken wilber:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, March 24, 2010, In : How I See It 
It took me about eight hours but I got there.

I privately railed against the Church all day after learning that Catholic Charities reclaimed their program funding at agency due to that agency's public opposition of the repeal of Maine's short-lived, same-sex marriage law.

While making dinner tonight, though, I remembered that United Way of Greater Portland also stopped funding programs at an agency because we disagreed with their internal practices. We still celebrate that decision today and p...

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pardon the interruption:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, March 21, 2010, In : How I See It 
This time of year is crazy for me.
It's usually just work that's nuts,
but this year it's been a full-court press.
You wouldn't believe it if I told you.
And it's too long a story for a blog entry.

What I can tell you without backfill is this:
When you get a hunch, follow it.

And this:
When you open up, things open up.

And:
Nets do, in fact, appear.


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help:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Monday, March 8, 2010, In : How I See It 
I need you.

I thought I could do this on my own, but I can't.

I need you to claim the power you have given away and stop pretending that you are at someone else's mercy, that you need to be told what to do, that others are to blame.

I need you to use your voice and be accountable for the world you inhabit.

I need you to stop.holding.yourself.back.

I need you to be a linchpin, an engaged citizen, an activist.

I need you to believe in possibility.

I need you and, if you need a cheerleader, I am her...

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drat:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, March 3, 2010, In : How I See It 
The simple answer is
that there is no simple answer.
-Clay Shirky

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one for the books:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, February 25, 2010, In : How I See It 
Last Wednesday my friend mentioned an author and the next day I had requested two books from the library and purchased his newest. The day after than I listened to two podcasts.

Sunday night I realized my search for her Clay Shirky had become my discovery of Seth Godin.

Wild, huh?

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realization:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, February 23, 2010, In : How I See It 
Someone asked today what I did at work and I responded with the two main bullet points of my resume:
  • Invest dollars raised during campaign back into community
  • Public policy
The reality, though, is that these two things do not come remotely close to capturing the role I play. My job description is a framework. It does not confine me.

The next time someone asks what I do, my first words will be "Well, my job description says that I..." and the last few will be something like "but that is only a sm...

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rant:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Monday, February 15, 2010, In : How I See It 
This is what I am going to ask the next time someone sighs and shakes their head after learning that T$ and I do not have children. If they answer no to my question, I will sigh and shake my head as if their life is surely empty and sad.

This question and subsequent reaction might seem like a disconnect but it's just another example of someone pushing their preference and acting as though any response different from their own is somehow less than.

And, while we have chosen a child-free path, o...

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my life coach:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Wednesday, February 10, 2010, In : How I See It 


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acceptance:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, February 7, 2010, In : How I See It 
I accept that there will always be more things to do than I can do; that I will always be nicer in hindsight; that the thought of food will generally be better than the food itself; that I'll expect more of myself than is humanly possible; and that I will be intensely focused on something for awhile then move on to something else.

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on your mark...

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, January 31, 2010, In : How I See It 

"In the middle years of her life and in the tradition of late bloomers, Julia Child embarked on her public career. Her eight years in Europe, where she studied cooking techniques, her organizational skills developed in the OSS Registry and writing advertising copy for Sloane's, even her drama productions for the Junior League--every life experience was used to bring her to this moment." (Appetite for Life, Noel Riley Fitch)

Just wait and see what I'm about to do...


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on my own:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, January 24, 2010, In : How I See It 


I've finally come to terms with the fact that my Fairy Godmothers are sitting this one out. They are not going to swoop in and grant me more time to do all of the things calling so loudly to be done.

When I catch myself in the Land of Blur, I take a deep breath, count down from three on the exhale and remember that what I do and how I do it is my choice.

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help haiti:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, January 17, 2010, In : How I See It 

Click here to help the people of Haiti via Konbit Sante, a Maine-based organization with an established presence in the area. To earmark your donation, enter Earthquake Response Fund in the Designation field.

My friend DM tagged along on Konbit Sante trip last fall. Click here to look through his camera.


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what would she do?

Posted by Jessica Esch on Sunday, January 3, 2010, In : How I See It 

Two friends are asking 365 women to create an organization that takes advantage of people's greatest gifts. A new response will be posted on their site each day.

Click here to see what I had to say.

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fare-thee-well:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, December 31, 2009, In : How I See It 
What a year.
I killed a blog and gave birth to another.
I met Ken Wilber and Julia Child,
fell in love in Times Square and
got lost in Twilight.
I got connected on Facebook and Twitter,
made peace with my past,
re-connected with friends,
made new ones and
became more comfortable in my skin.
Thanks for being a part of it.

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esch chess:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Thursday, December 17, 2009, In : How I See It 

These salt-and-pepper shakers fit so well together that it's painful to see them apart. Knowing this, T$ tirelessly messes with them... and me. It's a constant dance. Together. Back to back. Together. Side by side.


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good measure:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Tuesday, December 1, 2009, In : How I See It 
My mom handed me a set of stainless steel measuring spoons yesterday that belonged to my grandmother. She thought I would like to have them and added that they weren't anything special.

We both knew she was lying.

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double booked:

Posted by Jessica Esch on Saturday, November 28, 2009, In : How I See It 
Sometimes I get a glimpse of T$'s Facebook wall when he's forgotten to log out. This update from one of his friends caught my eye today:

I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day. -Elwyn Brooks White

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